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unreachableside: (☾ dreaming makes for sweet escape)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-11 05:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade doesn't shy away from holding his hand, at least. He weaves their fingers together almost too eagerly, and rubs his thumb over Dan Heng's. He's quiet for a minute as they watch the horizon, the boat gently rocking in the bay. It's nice and peaceful.

... He doesn't know where to begin. He looks down at the edge of the boat for a second, and briefly contemplates jumping in.]


My memories are still unclear about certain events, but... I remembered something a couple of weeks ago, and it stayed with me.
unreachableside: (☾ walk the dark path)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-11 06:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade runs his fingertips along the wood of the railing.]

... I thought I understood the sin we committed. I feel the gravity of it even now, lifetimes later.

[He breathes in through his nose and lets it out slowly. Then he glances over at Dan Heng.]

Dan Feng and Yingxing made a monster. Two, if you count what Yingxing became.

But... they also created a child.

Do you remember?
unreachableside: (☾ once my heart beats)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-11 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade doesn't look away. Instead he rests against the railing, back to the sea, and faces Dan Heng.]

Who else would it be?

[He presses his lips into a thin line.]

We lost someone very dear to us, went against every rule under heaven, and then a child appears with her face. Tell me, what else am I supposed to think?

[His brow furrows as he tries to remember.]

Vidyadhara aren't born.
unreachableside: yx; (☆ that i would stand a chance)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-12 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Dan Heng's tone isn't meant to be harsh, but the words are a stark reminder of the state of their half-remembered pasts. Blade takes a second to visibly calm himself, his canine ears pinning against his hair. He's not sulking, he's just... collecting himself.]

... Sorry.

[He runs his hand through his bangs, sending them everywhere.]

I know this is a lot. But... you would have remembered eventually. The resemblance is too strong to be coincidental. I don't want to keep anything from you; I did enough leaving and refusing to explain in the last life.

[That free hand now grips the railing again.]

There's something else about this that has been bothering me. I don't think Dan Feng wanted the Healer Lady to suffer the way he had.

There had to have been other hands in this.

... That's what I believe.
unreachableside: (☾ without an honest heart as compass)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-12 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
[Blade leans into the touch a little, his expression mild.] It's fine. Really. My memory isn't the best, but it's a little better than yours when it comes to certain matters of the past. I would do well to remember that.

As for the anger... I doubt all of it was my own. [A pause.] When you—that is, the Dan Heng of the past—said that you would see it through until the end, that was the happiest I'd ever been. I didn't hear that woman's voice in my head for once.

[He squeezes their still-twined hands. See? Everything is fine. Ish. A shadow darkens Blade's gaze when the Preceptors are mentioned.]

Them again.

[He can't even be surprised, though hearing that they had tried to kill Bailu, an innocent, infuriates him enough that he bares his fangs for a second.]

They would have strongarmed you into it if you had gone, or worse. Perhaps they would have even threatened you with her well-being if you didn't cooperate.

Snakes. Vipers. [His grip tightens on the railing.] What are the chances they were part of this from the very beginning? What if... they deemed Dan Feng uncontrollable, and orchestrated his fall to seize control again?

[There's nothing they can do about past lives, about sins committed by them or by the Preceptors. And yet a part of him still despairs, knowing they struggled and struggled to free themselves of fate's trappings and couldn't see their way out of it.

No wonder the old Blade had been so fucking tired.]
unreachableside: (☾ i know it's gone)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-12 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
[Blade grimaces slightly.] ... Better that you don't try to imagine. There's a reason I went mad.

[He calms down a little, and squeezes right back.]

That statue was just the Preceptors saving face, then. [The statue he had, after all, spent an inordinate amount of time gazing at...]

If the little lady had been raised as their puppet as they intended, or if you had stayed beneath their thumbs, perhaps they would have succeeded. But they did not.

[His eyes narrow.] ... I think, on some level, I wanted vengeance against those Preceptors, too. It's... fuzzy.

[So he's at the limits of his knowledge. Still... After a minute, he pulls away from the railing so he can take Dan Heng into his arms for a hug. He doesn't want either of them to fall too deeply into the past. He nuzzles behind Dan Heng's ear and leaves a kiss there.]

It wouldn't have taken much. Plant an idea here, a hint there, and Dan Feng and Yingxing would have made their own path to destruction.

[He settles his hand on the small of Dan Heng's back.]

But that is the past. What do we want to do moving forward?

... She is family.
unreachableside: (☾ bleed for me won't you bleed for me)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-15 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[He sighs at that.]

The injustices done to you and your past lives are innumerable.

[To say nothing of how they had engineered the fall of the High Cloud Quintet. Oh, they hadn't killed Baiheng themselves, but all they had to do was throw gasoline at the fire.]

They couldn't have been doing anything good. But... I'm glad she was able to look after herself.

[He closes his eyes for a moment and lets that old anger wash off him, thinking instead about the feeling of Dan Heng in his arms. He's warm and soft, and he fits perfectly, and Blade takes a minute to breathe in and allow the cool wind coming off the water to swirl around them. He can hear the snippets of conversation from the other end of the ship, but he ignores it.]

I imagine she would have her own feelings to sort out as well. So we'll go at her own pace, and tell the truth if she asks for it.

[He pauses.]

... I'll tell her the same thing that I told you. You are not Dan Feng, and she is not Baiheng either.

[softly]

What was Bailu like? Did you know her well?
unreachableside: (☾ so i can go on)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-16 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
You two had more in common than you had differences. You weren't just a mentor, you were a peer. As High Elder, she didn't really have that before she met you.

You made her feel less alone.

[He says it so easily because Dan Heng makes him feel the same way.]

... I know what it's like to feel as if you can't reclaim part of yourself. But you learned what you could, and you still have the power to help others as you are now.

[He smiles a little, as confident as he sounds.]

You are fine just the way you are, [he says, planting another kiss in Dan Heng's hair,] —I promise.
unreachableside: (☾ oh how i wish)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-16 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
[Hearing that surprises Blade a little, but then he smiles, soft and real.] Yeah. I don't regret meeting you in any life. Either of us could have parted ways in this life, and it would have been fine... but that wasn't what we chose. [He might regret the sin they committed, and the actions he took when he went mad, but he doesn't regret entering Dan Feng's life and that of the Quintet.]

You're welcome.

[He gives Dan Heng as long as he needs to speak up again. He's... expecting this lecture, honestly.]

If I told you I meant to take better care of myself from now on, would you believe me? I can't exactly surpass my past self if I die before he did. I have to live another twenty years and then some just to make up for all the time I lost.

[He plays with a little bit of Dan Heng's bangs.]

But accidents around the forge are inevitable. If I need a beautiful doctor to help me change my bandages, you'll always be my first choice.
unreachableside: yx; (☆ don't want to leave the past)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-16 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Blade's smile only grows when he sees the fluster. He leaves another kiss in Dan Heng's hair, and chuckles warmly at the exasperation in his love's tone.]

I... well. It's a work in progress. Like making mechs that don't explode when they have a catastrophic failure.

[He lets Dan Heng take his hand, and squeezes a little.]

I like those things, too. Besides, we both know if you made me feed myself I'd starve.

[He takes their joined hands and presses them against his own stomach. Which is still very muscular, by the way, even if he's acting like it isn't.]

Maybe I've been eating a little too well. What do you think?
unreachableside: (☾ here i stand undressed)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-16 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[He laughs at that.] Oh, probably... [He has a pact with Venti, after all.]

Oh, come on. That was one time. I needed something to offset the bitterness of the espresso and it worked in a pinch...

[Dan Heng's deadpan is something to be reckoned with. Blade stares right back, his canine ears perked up and attentive. He lets his boyfriend maneuver him around as needed, only barely fighting back a smile.

And then he feels the hand on his chest and goes red. He tries to be smooth about it, but Dan Heng being forward always gets him flustered like this.]


Could be a little of both, [he manages with minimal stammer.] I won't complain about eating more of your food.

[He leans in, then, pressing more purposefully against the hand on his chest. His voice drops to a heated whisper:]

I wouldn't mind adding more dragon to my diet, either.
unreachableside: (☾ for hope i'd give my everything)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2024-02-16 06:21 pm (UTC)(link)
... Okay, but I had to do science.

[He's not doing very well stifling his laughter. He knows he's ridiculous, and he's just happy to see Dan Heng teasing and being alive instead of hiding away from his emotions.

The anticipation crawls up his chest along with that hand, but then he's silenced. His ears pin against his hair. Even so, his tail wags furiously at the key phrase... He can't help his dog brain. Before Dan Heng pulls his hand away completely, though, he leaves a kiss on his palm.]


Fine with me. I can't plan any surprises for Valentine's Day while we're on this ship, anyway.

[Even if that surprise is as simple as something like top shelf baijiu and moongazing.]

... Thanks. For listening to me earlier. [If he kept it to himself any longer, he might explode.]

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