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Dan Heng ([personal profile] heng_like_a_dragon) wrote2037-09-02 11:43 am

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unreachableside: (☾ to the rhythm of falling snow)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 12:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Up to you.

[... although.]

I look a little different because of the full moon. If you laugh at me I'll kill you.

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unreachableside: (☾ now we have reached the end)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade is not about to make that any better.]

The park is fine.

I'll bring the usual.


[The boba is an important ritual at this point.]
unreachableside: yx; (☆ for one more night)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 01:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade definitely could have made life easier on himself if he had just used the hammerspace bag he got from the gacha, but it's fine. He has hands for a reason.

He arrives not long after Dan Heng carrying one of those little gray drink trays with two bobas in it (matcha, half sweet and original, half sweet) as per usual, but there's a bouquet tucked between them as well. He wears a thin, loose navy scarf around his neck and black everything else, including a long coat and his docs. The fluffy dog ears are familiar at this point, but he also has... a big fluffy tail to match; he's had his coat modified for ease of movement, which also includes a big slit in the back for the tail to poke through.]


Hey.

[There's a little table set for duck watching, so he places the boba on it and holds out the bouquet for Dan Heng to take. It's a pretty reasonably-sized bouquet, with white heliotropes forming the main canvas, and a few purple varieties of alstroemerias taking center stage. They've been tied together with a jade ribbon.

He also takes out a small, flat box from the inside of his coat and holds that out too.]


This is for you.

[Inside the box is a gold bracelet with handcarved light green jade and pearl beads.]

It's not a weapon, [he says as if that's what Dan Heng could be thinking at this moment.] It... [uh] ... It has an enchantment that should help you find your way in the dark. Just in case.
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unreachableside: (☾ staring down the emptiness)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade is not expecting to be called cute. There might be a look of vague panic in that one visible red eye. Don't mind him.]

I— [blade.exe has crashed. Just. Just kill him, honestly. Thankfully Dan Heng moves onto the flowers so he doesn't have to worry about how red he must be.]

... Glad you like them.

[He'll have to thank Lapis later.

Blade tries his best to look nonchalant, even folding his arms, but his candle-flame eyes don't leave the other man as he unpacks the gift. Then he realizes something is wrong. Maybe it's the little tremble in his fingers, or the wetness of Dan Heng's eyes, but he feels like a storm must be coming.

Oh no. Did he do something wrong? Is the bracelet really that bad of a gift? Blade is about to ask because Dan Heng turns away, but then...

... Ah. Obviously something he did reminded Dan Heng of this or that, even if it isn't anything he did personally. How is that any better?]


Don't apologize.

[For some reason, hearing that kind of apology just... irks him. Like Dan Heng is apologizing for existing. That's something that Blade absolutely cannot accept.]

I didn't do any of this because I wanted something from you.

[He has his own confusing tangle of emotions.]

That means you don't have to explain, either. You don't owe me anything. [But it does beg the question of what is the point, which Blade acknowledges.] ... It's probably presumptuous to say this, but just being around you is enough for me.

[Sometimes it's even overwhelming, especially if he tries to remember more than he's been given.]
unreachableside: (☾ to the rhythm of falling snow)

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[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 07:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade frowns as Dan Heng admits that he's also a bit lost in all of this. He takes the other seat at the table and listens quietly, but attentively; his ears are testament to that.]

I don't think it contradicts what you said at all. If anything... we're the same.

[He sips his boba quietly as Dan Heng goes on. When I dream, it's like I'm not myself. ... Yeah, that sounds familiar. He's not sure if it's a past life memories thing or what, but his clearest memories come to him in dreams, unfiltered by his demon's meddling. He's had a couple weeks to get used to that.

Depersonalization disorder... He remembers that being tossed around as something that might be affecting his memory in a longer way than simple dissociative amnesia. In the end, he'd been ruled DA and released, because there wasn't much else they could do for him. And Blade had learned to hide his demon possession better.]


... I am sorry.

[Dan Heng must really like the bracelet if he's putting it on. Blade, too, is thinking about the bracer... He's almost tempted to give him his own, but it wouldn't be the same. Blade's is in worse condition than the one Dan Heng wore. It's older and more beat-up.]

You can keep this one, [he says after a moment. It's a callback to their conversation in the car a couple weeks ago.] What matters is that you like it.

[He glances towards the duck pond as if that might do something to hide the faint blush on his cheeks.]

... And I enjoy your presence, too. [Even when his demon does not. Even when he feels the half-remembered obsession and fury rising up in his throat like bile, he remembers those eyes and a cool touch, and he calms for a little while.

Still, Dan Heng looks so... He wants to hold his hand or something but he isn't sure how welcome his touch would be. They've only just begun to get to know each other in this life, after all. But that... that urge to be close to him, that's still there. He isn't sure if it's Yingxing or Blade or the other Yingxing or the other Blade. Fuck.

There has to be something...]
unreachableside: (☾ to a place i once called home)

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[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[He is going to regret this so much but it is worth it if Dan Heng is happy, right?

Right.]


... You can touch my ears if you want. [...] I know you've been staring at them.
unreachableside: (☾ once my heart beats)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-19 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[It truly does. They have a lot of parallels between the two of them.]

I try not to think about it. [He pauses.] If there is one thing that the demon has taught me, it's how to live in the present. The future is unknown and the past is difficult for me to recall. So I focus on what's in front of me. What I can do with my own two hands.

... But that might not work for you. I don't know.

[He's trying.

His ears turn toward Dan Heng as he shifts. It only takes a second or two for Blade to close his eyes and lean into it... A cursory peek at Dan Heng's face with one eye open confirms what he thought, that offering his ears has cheered him up a little. He realizes with a start that he would do many things to protect that smile, and not all of them are nice or legal.

Hm. Well, then.

Also, there's a... sound... That's his tail. Wagging furiously back and forth to the point where it's kind of smacking his coat.]


The full moon is why I can't put them away. I'd just gotten used to the ears, but then... it got worse.

[He pulls his lips back in a scowl. He has fangies, too.]

It's inconvenient more than it is dangerous.
unreachableside: (☾ you won't see me coming)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-20 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
Will you start apprenticing at my forge, too? [That's a joke. That fangy smirk is definitely a joke.]

Unfortunately, it has, [he says with that low, hateful drawl that he uses for everything from being forced to socialize to dropping his ice cream on the ground.] I've already shredded two toothbrushes.

[He rests his chin in his hand, trying to look nonchalant or even bored because that is way cooler than just staring at Dan Heng and getting lost in how much he likes looking at him. His swaying tail gives him away, though.]

It feels like a cosmic joke. Forgetting almost everything after a questionable rebirth, all of the bad blood between us after the exile, and then another rebirth where we forgot everything again.

[Fate can be cruel.

His ears flick. He glances back at Dan Heng.]


... Do you know what your favorite food is? Or your favorite board game?

[...]

Would you like to find out?
unreachableside: (☾ now i find in every mirror a ghost)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-20 12:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh. Oh no. Dan Heng has noticed. Blade pinkens up like a cherry and pointedly does not make eye contact, though his ears give him away... They keep lowering every time Dan Heng gives him a scrap of attention, and paired with a tail wagging, it's... pretty obvious he's infatuated to some degree.]

I think you'd like working with your hands, personally.

[Just ignoring all of that. ALL of it.]

... I can't deny that things were worse for the other Blade. So there might be some truth to that, if you're the hopeful type. [Blade is not, but he can't help wondering if Blade and Dan Heng in the past ever reconciled. He decides he doesn't want to know if they didn't... What they have right now is fine.

He's... glad to have learned something new about Dan Heng, even if he can't reciprocate the sharing. (Also his tail is wagging extremely fast again.)]


When you said you don't know who you are, I thought about when we watched that movie. I... didn't mind that. [TAIL WAGGING FURIOUSLY] I thought we could do it again, but with different things, if we're learning about ourselves.

[He sounds so awkward. He knows he sounds awkward. He hates this.

... Also he reaches down to grab his own tail without breaking eye contact.]
unreachableside: yx; (☆ i fight for the chance)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-20 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[Aaaand the ears go back again.]

... You don't have to do that.

[IT'S TRUE BUT WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO FUCKING LOUD ABOUT IT]

I suppose it must be. I'm not used to it myself, so I'll just look to you when I need it.

[A weird but... kind of sweet sentiment? Blade you are weird.

He isn't expecting Dan Heng to crack up laughing, though. It catches him off guard entirely. It's not a sound he's used to hearing, but it's adorable. He's heard Dan Heng chuckle before but nothing like this; he's obviously struggling not to lose it entirely.

Blade's sexuality has never weighed heavier than in this moment. He teeters between being embarrassed (he is very red) and being completely twitterpated (he is, after all, very red).

... Right. Dan Heng said something. Blade turns away and sips his boba, trying to play it off casually like he's too cool to sit in a chair like a normal person, but the truth is terribly obvious to anyone with eyes.]


I— [He clears his throat and tries again.] ... Wouldn't mind that.

[Good. Fucking. Christ.]
unreachableside: yx; (☆ can't risk believing)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-20 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[... Blade is really tempted to grab his hand and make him keep doing it, but he holds off. He sighs, but doesn't fight Dan Heng, because on some level he knows he's right.]

You and Lapis are both stubborn in this way.

[Time for some chewy boba. He takes a few moments to respond, because every second spent doing that is one less second he has to worry about being so red he might die.]

That's fine. I don't want to interfere with your studies.
unreachableside: yx; (☆ 'cause i've spent too long in the dark)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-20 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[dryly] God forbid you two ever meet.

[ASJKLAJSLJSDSJKLDG]

Of course I listened to you. [He's not blushing. (He's blushing.)] Even when the beast had me, I tried to listen. [He still isn't sure why. Maybe deep down, gripped by the madness, he still recognized the one he loved in the past.

Blade's eyes lift to Dan Heng's as he's told to hold still. He's terribly confused, right up until Dan Heng finishes and pulls back. Only then does Blade realize he's been holding his breath.

Haha, damn, he has it this bad already...?

He reaches up to gently touch the flower. No chance of that blush going down anytime soon, not with the way he ducks his gaze after.]


... Do you know what they mean?
unreachableside: (☾ you won't taste the poison)

[personal profile] unreachableside 2023-09-20 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blade is about to point out that thinking is probably what got them into trouble in the first place, but he decides not to. It's not something they've really sat down and spoken about yet, and he doesn't feel comfortable joking about it even a little when it ruined so many lives. Whatever it was they did... the details are so heinous they couldn't even be recorded clearly in his book.]

I... [His voice lowers a notch, as if to match Dan Heng's own softness.] I didn't know about that other meaning. [He hasn't stopped touching his hair, though he's careful not to disturb the flowers too much.]

You believe I can be saved...

[Salvation. It isn't something he dared dream about before. And in that other life, he's sure 'salvation' meant an end to his miserable existence. Is that really salvation, or is it giving up like everyone else says?

He turns toward Dan Heng when he speaks again. This... definitely starts to sound like a confession. He's talking about feelings—feelings that Blade has also been struggling with in his own way. There is no disguising how his ears lower, expecting some bad news.

The amount of lifting that yet is doing. Blade breathes out slowly and rests his hands on the table.]


... I'm not ready, either. I don't feel like I can let go of everything that's in our past and pretend I feel nothing... nor can I move forward. I want things to stay just like this. I want to learn about Dan Heng the biologist, and all the things that make him different from Dan Heng the exile.

[He wants to fall in love again. He thinks he has, but he wants to do it the right way. Like normal people. With flowers and dates and holding hands, and precious gifts in small boxes.

Dan Heng deserves that much at least.]


And I... want to meet this fool he's so intent on saving. [Blade's lips curve into a slight smile.] I can't do that if I let the demon continue like it has.

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