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[heng_like_a_dragon]

[Although it's not on the same scale, it does strike a chord in Dan Heng. He remembers more clearly in this life how his Preceptors tried to isolate him, and how they disapproved of his friendships within the High-Cloud Quintet. Gopher Wood took a different tactic, but it's still one that he understands deeply. Someone trying to mold another into being the perfect tool for their plans.]

...Neither would I.

[Dan Heng lets out a soft 'heh.']

I would. Many of the people here are very, ah... assertive about such things.

[Even he's been that assertive, which is new for him. It's quite refreshing if he's being honest with himself.]

I do. It can wear at the spirit and erode your sense of self. Sometimes... it paralyzes you in fear of what you are capable of doing in the future if you are pushed back to that same situation. [He pauses for a moment to think.] I think... that it's important to acknowledge what you've done, to keep in mind and acknowledge that you might even do that again if you were pushed to that brink again. There's no shame in that acknowledgement. You are simply understanding yourself.

If you find yourself slipping back to the person you'd been, my best advice is to reach out to the people you're closest to. The people who know who you are now. Let them help to ground you in this present life. And if you have no one you can turn to at that time, you can call me any day or night. I will help you.

[You should really take your own advice, hypocrite.

Ignoring Vritra, there's a dryness in Dan Heng's voice as he adds:] I don't need much sleep nowadays, so you will not be bothering me.

[consonanter]

[He laughs again.] Assertive certainly is a word for it- though I can't exactly say I'm opposed. Goodness knows I need it, in some ways.

Yes, I've slowly begun to try and accept that this was what I thought was right, at the time. Even if it would never be something I'd choose now. It's- I wish I had a term for it other than "distressing," as that feels almost too light for the situation. [A pause.] Over time I hope the acceptance will become easier to fathom. And I'll be sure to reach out to people I know, should I find myself falling on old habits.

I see. I... unfortunately learned I don't need much sleep anymore when I was on the ship, back in October. [The very same one March was kidnapped to.] While I don't believe I'll need to contact you at a drastic hour, I'll keep that in mind. Hopefully it will be something I can manage over time.