[He laughs again.] Assertive certainly is a word for it- though I can't exactly say I'm opposed. Goodness knows I need it, in some ways.

Yes, I've slowly begun to try and accept that this was what I thought was right, at the time. Even if it would never be something I'd choose now. It's- I wish I had a term for it other than "distressing," as that feels almost too light for the situation. [A pause.] Over time I hope the acceptance will become easier to fathom. And I'll be sure to reach out to people I know, should I find myself falling on old habits.

I see. I... unfortunately learned I don't need much sleep anymore when I was on the ship, back in October. [The very same one March was kidnapped to.] While I don't believe I'll need to contact you at a drastic hour, I'll keep that in mind. Hopefully it will be something I can manage over time.