[Blade lifts his head when he hears Dan Heng join him out on the deck. He doesn't say anything for a minute, but the bubbly sniff he gives is very telling. His cheeks are wet, too. He rubs his face on his sleeve and returns to resting his elbows atop the railing.

He's never been so vulnerable in front of someone before. He hates the feeling.]

You must despise me.

[He glances down at the street. He isn't really looking.]

Letting myself be swayed by memories. Falling prey to some beast. Threatening you like some mad specter of the past...

[This situation is so awful that he wants to laugh.]

All for a love neither of us fully remember.