[Blade appreciates him so much right now. After setting the wastebasket down, he leans into Dan Heng's touch and closes his eyes. He feels a tremor inside him still, a lingering aftereffect of the vomiting most likely.]

I won't lose myself. I have no intention of throwing my life away for something I wasn't fully at fault for. It isn't the same as... [... the Sedition. He was so committed to ending his life, and Dan Heng's, back then. He remembers it more clearly now.] I'm more useful working than in jail. ... Jusis has probably already prepared for this eventuality.

[After that adorable cheek kiss, he rests his head against Dan Heng's shoulder. His cheeks are a little pink, but he's pretending he isn't so easily affected by Dan Heng flirting right back.]

Did I at least look good in the dress?